Hey guys, I hope everyone is having a fun and safe summer so far.I can't believe we're almost half way threw already. Although I actually like going to school and am looking forward to my fall classes I'm enjoying this break. So far most of my summer has been spent working. I'm currently trying to save up for a bridesmaids dress for my nieces wedding. I am so happy and excited for her. We're going dress shopping in August so keep an eye out for some updates.
This past 4th of July was a semi quite and small one at home with my family. Unfortunately while doing the afternoon dishes I hit the side of our porcelain sink with a coffee cup. The cup cracked in half my pinky slid down the broken part of the cup. Basically filleting the outer part of my pinky I ended up in the ER getting my finger glued back together.
On a happier note I have started writing again. I 'm working on a new book titled "The Voices From The Greenroom" I have been toying around with this idea for a few months now and recently got bit by the inspirational bug, The idea for the book came from hanging out with friends in the greenroom at the college this past year. I sent a message out to our group chat asking if it was ok with everyone if I could use them as inspiration for my characters.
Disclaimer: This story is inspired by actual events and people. But is not a biographical story. The names, locations, and events have been changed. It is purely just inspired by a group of friends,
I am not sure yet whether I will be posting any of the book on here. Maybe sometime down the line, but for now I'm keeping to myself and my friends of course. Who by the way have all signed off on the idea and are all actually really excited to see how it all unfolds.
XO That One Girl
For this weeks Me Myself and I blog post I took inspiration from one of my favorite YouTubers (Who I'm pretty sure hates being called that... Sorry Leesha) Xsparkage was one of the first channels I followed on YouTube and has been one of my top faves ever sense. Xsparkage (Leesha) does everything from makeup tutorials to fun vlogs with her family. Yesterday she posted a video titled 9 Things I Hate About Myself (And 9 Things I Love) I really liked the idea so I decided to take a note out of her book and do 5 Things I Hate About Myself (And 5 Things I Love) *In no particular order.*
I have been overtly self conscious my whole life. I don't like looking in mirrors unless I have to and even at that I don't spend a lot of time looking. I have been criticized for my looks my whole life. Even now with my adult acne and acne scars, I have super soft teeth do to the fact that I don't have a lot of enamor on them (I was sick a lot as a kid.) So they break easily. People jump to conclusions about me before they even talk to me. I really, really wish it was something I could just not care about and get over I am working on it. It's just easier said than done.
I am a pro at this. It's something that really needs to stop to be honest. Whether it's getting ready in the morning or doing a paper for a class I am queen of waiting tell the last possible minute.
It's a weird thing to not like about yourself. I tend to jump head first into things be it a relationship or friendship. It's not always a good thing to be the one who cares the most in a situation because I always end up being the one who gets hurt in the end.
I have something called Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD), It is a type of anxiety that doesn't need to have anything to trigger it. I can be having the best day ever and out of nowhere I will get hit with this feeling of dread in the pit of my stomach that something really bad is about to happen. Nothing ever does but it is an uncontrollable feeling. I also have something called Testing Anxiety (Yes its a real thing.) I can study for a test know all the answers frontward and backwards get A's and B's on every assignment and then when it comes to the test I blank everything I thought I knew I no longer remember any of it, Even if I had just been studying seconds before the test.
It's all apart of caring too much,
I love creating things for other people. Writing a short story and hearing all the positive reactions from people is the best. I also love creating things like banners and other such things for my the website or my twitter page or Facebook.
Those are the things that mean the most to me in the worlds.
There is no better feeling in the world then helping someone do something. I have been volunteering sense I was really little. I have always been told and believe fullheartedly that it is better to give than receive.
This is something I just kind of fell into. Whether its nature shots, posed, action, or candid I love it all. I really need to start uploading more of the stuff I do on here. My mom has told me I am the worst person to go on a walk with because I'm constantly stopping to take pictures of things, One of my favorite photo series is my Paris In My Pocket series (Link above, Click Paris In My Pocket for a bunch of candid shots or click on any of the mini series in the drop box.) The series started when I bought a bottle of perfume that came with a small Eiffel Tower charm, I had been wanting to do a series of photos where I took something around and took pictures of it in random places and the charm was perfect. I am planning on taking a digital photography class at the college this Winter.
I have loved music my whole life I don't go a day with out it. I listen to everything from Ozzie Osbourne to Harry Styles. I love how music can take you back to a memory in life or connect you with people you never would have thought to talk to before. It's amazing that something so simple as a song can mean so much to one person or how the right song can change your whole day.
Summer is finally here and new things are coming to the blog. It's taken me forever just to write this blog post. I didn't know how to start it. I'm not going to make any excuses on why I haven't been on here I will promise to keep it up to date more. I'm not so sure I want to keep the new Coffee Break banner. I kinda want to go back to the original one. One thing I know I will be keeping is the new home page. I don't normally like putting pictures of myself on here. I normally like being behind the camera rather than in front. Speaking of being behind the camera I recently did a small photoshoot with my mom as her Mother's Day gift I finally had time to edit them and post them. She looks really pretty.
If you want to see more from this shoot click here. I have a few Me Myself and I posts I want to put up and some recipes I've been holding onto for the baking section. I'm also planing on doing some new videos so keep an eye out. I know this blog isn't big and exciting but hey at least its something haha.
Xo That One Girl
I haven't done a song of the week in a really long time. Recently a close friend of mine told me to check out this band and I have been hooked ever sense.
It's been a while sense I have posted one of these. I found this on Pinterest and thought that it's a great reminder for not just myself but my readers as well.
*For more Notes click here*
I ment to post this yesterday but I had some things to take care of at school and then I got called into work early. The other day I went to the beach with a group of friends from my acting class and I took a few Paris In My Pocket pictures while we were there. I will be uploading another Paris shoot soon.
XO That One Girl
This year has been a year of reflection for me. Spiritually, emotionally, and personally. I have been thinking a lot about my faith and what it means to me and what church I want to make my own. For me this has been harder than I originally thought it would be. Thankfully I have an amazing best friend that I have been able to talk this threw with and has been on hand to answer any questions I have stupid or not. Although I know I can annoy the crap out of him with some of the questions I have *Even though he wont admit it haha*. I'm glad to have him on this path with me.
Emotionally I have been trying to get better control over my anxiety. This is another thing I have been leaning on my faith for as well as my best friend *Who I know I put a lot on and I owe a lot to. I have told him time and time again how grateful I am to have him in my life, and no I am not using him in any way for those haters out there*. I have also been attending consoling sessions threw my college. I know that it is very hard to get rid of anxiety permanently. For me I just want to find a way to face it and control it for now. Then maybe sometime down the road get rid of it permanently.
Personally I have just been reflecting on the path I am on right now in life. My college degree, where I live, and what my future may hold. I've been thinking a lot about if I am ready to find a guy and settle down with a family or not. Where I would like to move to. I know personally I need a second job, and that I need to learn how to properly balance my personal life around my school life.
The year isn't even half over yet and I'm not rushing anything or putting a deadline on any of this. What will happen will happen when it happens and whenever that is I will be ready for it.
*10 points to anyone who gets the Christina Aguilera reference in all of this*.
XO That One Girl